Where I'm,
Where I'm going,
Where I've been,
What I've done,
Have made me,
Who I'm.
This applies to everyone.
But,
I know,
Most people can't do what I've done, gone through what I did, have the future I've crafted for myself.
So why am I so unhappy?
My life is great, I can't ever say I'm bored, because I know there's 1001 things that I can do if I want to.
I enjoy everything I do, the fun things, the duty, the studying, the work, walking, time with my friends. Damn, but I enjoy every breath i take, every moment of my life. I love life and revel in its beauty.
But,
There's just this emptiness that cannot be filled.
A void too deep, too confusing even for me.
Am I greedy? My needs are all fulfilled, so are my wants. I should be a happy man.
Or is there a need, I'm missing? Something that I don't know about.
Need or Greed?
Monday, March 31, 2008
Saturday, March 29, 2008
Operation Pink Thunder
So dead tired.
Let Guns N Roses fill me with energy.
Made some notes and ready to go.
We met at Tampines at 1030 hours, and we headed to Azad's house to prepare for the surprise party. Bought evaporated milk for his bundung ice-pop. (Pink)
First thing we did when we reached his house was test the compatibility of the laptop and digital camera. Changed all his 40 metal hangers to pink hangers.
Then we confirmed the details of the video for the powerpoint presentation. We decided to pretend to break into his house. We had 3 people on the lookout, and calling in 2 backup on bike. Then the 2 person leapt over the wall into his house, and opened the gate. We then crawled from the gate to the main door, and thereafter I tried to pick the lock but failed. Then we sighed in despair and decided to just knock on the door. Guess who opened the door!? His mum :P
Did 7 tries. Certainly cleaned the floor with our crawling :P
There was no time to rest though. We had to go straight into preparing his room.
First was the bedsheets. We changed it to a rosy red sheets, complete with comforter and quilt cover. Placed a red heart cushion and pink care bear.
I changed his green army conscort which he used to hang paper clips and notes into a blink blink purple string. :)
The rest went about to decorate his bench press with pink feathers and pink towel.
Set up a hanging cupboard, and put pink crocs on the lowest compartment for him. :P
Set up a pink stool for him to reach the highest compartment, and a red door mat.
Tied pink ribbons on his fan, air-con and every handle there was.
After all this was done, we looked at the stickers. That's when we went CRAZY.
We covered every metal, plastic surface with star stickers. His keyboard, montior, mouse, computer table edge, legs, sides, printer, beach press, weights, all the cupboards, bed frame, air-con, fan, power plug, anywhere we could find. Trust me, it was hell of a lot of stickers.
Then one of us had a really great idea. We got post its. Color? What kinda question is that? By then you should know it's pink.
We practically pasted post its on everything we changed, bought and on his cupboard. Written on the post its were "Happy 21 B'Day" and on the wardrobe were messages like "Sai was here", "Amir was here", "Poh was here", "We love you" and other cool messages. Looked real beautiful. And we used the post its to do a tiny book of 21 things Azad always wanted to do but never got to :P
So he came home, was sang birthday song by us, and had to open a huge ball of presents to see a note "Go to your room".
We had people in the room to take pictures and videos of his reaction. The look on his face was worth every bit of hard work :P
As Visa puts it,
"Bedsheets : $39"
"Stickers : $1.90"
"The Look on Azad's face when he entered his room : Priceless"
He had to change into a purple sleeveless shirt, with bear pictures and text "what are friends for?" Very apt eh? :P Oh yeah, almost forgot the pink scrunchy and pink hair band that he had to wear. He had to hug the care bear and take pictures with it :P
Then he went through the 20 tasks we set him to do. (number 1 was going to his room), while hugging the care bear :)
Was really fun, and the people were fun to be with.
We took pictures with him, and had the guests signed on a paper that we sprayed black, with a gold marker. The paper was framed up and looked real good. Gold against black, royal and just beautiful.
We also did a blow up of our group photo and hung it on his wall. Fantastic.
He took pictures with everyone at the party, and finally... We pulled a stunt on him. We called his phone to make him take it out of his pocket, grabbed his phone and dumped the entire icebox with ice and water on him. Revenge is sweet.
Then we basically chilled out, just chatted, listened to music and enjoyed each other's company.
Best night, second only, of course to my own BBQ :P
Let Guns N Roses fill me with energy.
Made some notes and ready to go.
We met at Tampines at 1030 hours, and we headed to Azad's house to prepare for the surprise party. Bought evaporated milk for his bundung ice-pop. (Pink)
First thing we did when we reached his house was test the compatibility of the laptop and digital camera. Changed all his 40 metal hangers to pink hangers.
Then we confirmed the details of the video for the powerpoint presentation. We decided to pretend to break into his house. We had 3 people on the lookout, and calling in 2 backup on bike. Then the 2 person leapt over the wall into his house, and opened the gate. We then crawled from the gate to the main door, and thereafter I tried to pick the lock but failed. Then we sighed in despair and decided to just knock on the door. Guess who opened the door!? His mum :P
Did 7 tries. Certainly cleaned the floor with our crawling :P
There was no time to rest though. We had to go straight into preparing his room.
First was the bedsheets. We changed it to a rosy red sheets, complete with comforter and quilt cover. Placed a red heart cushion and pink care bear.
I changed his green army conscort which he used to hang paper clips and notes into a blink blink purple string. :)
The rest went about to decorate his bench press with pink feathers and pink towel.
Set up a hanging cupboard, and put pink crocs on the lowest compartment for him. :P
Set up a pink stool for him to reach the highest compartment, and a red door mat.
Tied pink ribbons on his fan, air-con and every handle there was.
After all this was done, we looked at the stickers. That's when we went CRAZY.
We covered every metal, plastic surface with star stickers. His keyboard, montior, mouse, computer table edge, legs, sides, printer, beach press, weights, all the cupboards, bed frame, air-con, fan, power plug, anywhere we could find. Trust me, it was hell of a lot of stickers.
Then one of us had a really great idea. We got post its. Color? What kinda question is that? By then you should know it's pink.
We practically pasted post its on everything we changed, bought and on his cupboard. Written on the post its were "Happy 21 B'Day" and on the wardrobe were messages like "Sai was here", "Amir was here", "Poh was here", "We love you" and other cool messages. Looked real beautiful. And we used the post its to do a tiny book of 21 things Azad always wanted to do but never got to :P
So he came home, was sang birthday song by us, and had to open a huge ball of presents to see a note "Go to your room".
We had people in the room to take pictures and videos of his reaction. The look on his face was worth every bit of hard work :P
As Visa puts it,
"Bedsheets : $39"
"Stickers : $1.90"
"The Look on Azad's face when he entered his room : Priceless"
He had to change into a purple sleeveless shirt, with bear pictures and text "what are friends for?" Very apt eh? :P Oh yeah, almost forgot the pink scrunchy and pink hair band that he had to wear. He had to hug the care bear and take pictures with it :P
Then he went through the 20 tasks we set him to do. (number 1 was going to his room), while hugging the care bear :)
Was really fun, and the people were fun to be with.
We took pictures with him, and had the guests signed on a paper that we sprayed black, with a gold marker. The paper was framed up and looked real good. Gold against black, royal and just beautiful.
We also did a blow up of our group photo and hung it on his wall. Fantastic.
He took pictures with everyone at the party, and finally... We pulled a stunt on him. We called his phone to make him take it out of his pocket, grabbed his phone and dumped the entire icebox with ice and water on him. Revenge is sweet.
Then we basically chilled out, just chatted, listened to music and enjoyed each other's company.
Best night, second only, of course to my own BBQ :P
Friday, March 28, 2008
Operation Pink Thunder
Operation "Pink Thunder" begins at 1030 hours.
Damn, but to keep this information inside me for 1 week is killing me.
Damn glad today is here. :)
Will update the progress and details tonight if I have the energy.
Damn, but to keep this information inside me for 1 week is killing me.
Damn glad today is here. :)
Will update the progress and details tonight if I have the energy.
Monday, March 24, 2008
Missing Something
I admit the camp has taken quite a bit out of me. I've been sleeping quite a bit. But it feels like there's something missing.
I got the scholarship. I've received the confirmation e-mail. In fact, I got it before my camp, but I just didn't check my e-mail.
My life is all set for the next 7 years. All i have to do is walk through it. And now that the destination is set, the journey is the one that matters. It's up to me to make it a memorable one.
Feeling just so weird. I applied for it, but never really thought I would get it. In fact, I've always made plans but it's seldom this big and to walk through this seems daunting.
I've always seen myself as an adult. I hated my childhood. But now that it's here, and the fact is that it is going to be a lot better than what most people will go through, it's just weird. I'm so used to being compromised. So used to being second, that being able to really control my life scares me. Why? Cause despite the pain and suffering. This is what made me who I'm. This is what Chin Poh is about. This is the life of Chin Poh. This made me, Chin Poh.
But, am I such a weak man?
I hope not. To allow circumstances to rule me. To allow external factors to make me sway. I need to find inner strength. Remember my values, my principals and my beliefs. I must hold true to them. I must not wavier, must not walk a path that I will regret.
I got the scholarship. I've received the confirmation e-mail. In fact, I got it before my camp, but I just didn't check my e-mail.
My life is all set for the next 7 years. All i have to do is walk through it. And now that the destination is set, the journey is the one that matters. It's up to me to make it a memorable one.
Feeling just so weird. I applied for it, but never really thought I would get it. In fact, I've always made plans but it's seldom this big and to walk through this seems daunting.
I've always seen myself as an adult. I hated my childhood. But now that it's here, and the fact is that it is going to be a lot better than what most people will go through, it's just weird. I'm so used to being compromised. So used to being second, that being able to really control my life scares me. Why? Cause despite the pain and suffering. This is what made me who I'm. This is what Chin Poh is about. This is the life of Chin Poh. This made me, Chin Poh.
But, am I such a weak man?
I hope not. To allow circumstances to rule me. To allow external factors to make me sway. I need to find inner strength. Remember my values, my principals and my beliefs. I must hold true to them. I must not wavier, must not walk a path that I will regret.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Words cannot do Justice
The past 3 days were great. More than perfect. Is that even possible? Yes.
Spent the last 3 days at Mawai Eco Camp.
Day 1:
Departure from school to Mawai. Upon arrival, I was like "Wow". Super nice place. All wooden, and wild looking. Set up bed, went for swampforest walk. Was impressed with the animal traps. Looked real cool and can made my imagination run wild. The walk was fun, really informative. Learnt names of a few edible plants and fruits. Should have worn combat boots though :P only had 1 pair of shoes, couldn't afford to lose it in the mud, had to get it out on a couple of occassions. Annoying. Fell and made like 15 punctures and a couple of splinters in my arms/hands. Annoying. But, was damn fun. At night, we had firefly cruising. Beautiful ride out on the river, trying to catch glimpses of fireflies and stars. Serene.
Note to Self : Food was great, people was fun to be with. Great day.
Day 2:
Woke up, prepared to go climb Anu Gunung. Was told the climb up would be like climbing stairs. Reached the submit in 40 minutes? Was uneventful except seeing some plants with edible berries. Had lunch at submit, and went to a secret place along the trail down. Best view. Wow. Was along a cliff. Breath taking. I said "the best painter cannot paint the scene." I was wrong. The person could. But it would not be able to protray the majesty of the view, the actual feeling you get when you sit on the cliff of rocks and look out. If there was a view to behold before you die. That would be it. BUT, it made me realise there's loads of other mountains to be climbed and plenty more views to be enjoyed. Climb down was exciting, rather challenging and fun. The best part was the beach. B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L. The absence of people, beautiful rock formations, sand, wide open spaces, river. Just too good to be true. Even the rain cannot dampen the beauty of the place. Went back to campsite feeling surreal. Had campfire, which was not so exciting cause the kids weren't into it. But heard KP sing "Anak". Fanastic. Sang songs, enjoyed the company of nice people.
Note to self : Travel more, see more, learn more, experience more. And, damn, the food was too good.
Day 3:
Did water obstacle course. Kids were excited and hyped up. Was fun, tried some of them myself. Most memorable perhas was seeing the kids work together to get up to the V-Beam. Even got them to raise their hands to take a picture. Wasn't sad when I was leaving the place. Told myself I would come back again. I would be looking forward to that day. :)
Note to self : The trip was more than perfect. Couldn't have wanted to be anywhere else in this world but there. Will always remember this trip as one of the happy days. A journey of self discovery, camaraderie, learning, and beautiful memories.
See you again Mawai.
Spent the last 3 days at Mawai Eco Camp.
Day 1:
Departure from school to Mawai. Upon arrival, I was like "Wow". Super nice place. All wooden, and wild looking. Set up bed, went for swampforest walk. Was impressed with the animal traps. Looked real cool and can made my imagination run wild. The walk was fun, really informative. Learnt names of a few edible plants and fruits. Should have worn combat boots though :P only had 1 pair of shoes, couldn't afford to lose it in the mud, had to get it out on a couple of occassions. Annoying. Fell and made like 15 punctures and a couple of splinters in my arms/hands. Annoying. But, was damn fun. At night, we had firefly cruising. Beautiful ride out on the river, trying to catch glimpses of fireflies and stars. Serene.
Note to Self : Food was great, people was fun to be with. Great day.
Day 2:
Woke up, prepared to go climb Anu Gunung. Was told the climb up would be like climbing stairs. Reached the submit in 40 minutes? Was uneventful except seeing some plants with edible berries. Had lunch at submit, and went to a secret place along the trail down. Best view. Wow. Was along a cliff. Breath taking. I said "the best painter cannot paint the scene." I was wrong. The person could. But it would not be able to protray the majesty of the view, the actual feeling you get when you sit on the cliff of rocks and look out. If there was a view to behold before you die. That would be it. BUT, it made me realise there's loads of other mountains to be climbed and plenty more views to be enjoyed. Climb down was exciting, rather challenging and fun. The best part was the beach. B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L. The absence of people, beautiful rock formations, sand, wide open spaces, river. Just too good to be true. Even the rain cannot dampen the beauty of the place. Went back to campsite feeling surreal. Had campfire, which was not so exciting cause the kids weren't into it. But heard KP sing "Anak". Fanastic. Sang songs, enjoyed the company of nice people.
Note to self : Travel more, see more, learn more, experience more. And, damn, the food was too good.
Day 3:
Did water obstacle course. Kids were excited and hyped up. Was fun, tried some of them myself. Most memorable perhas was seeing the kids work together to get up to the V-Beam. Even got them to raise their hands to take a picture. Wasn't sad when I was leaving the place. Told myself I would come back again. I would be looking forward to that day. :)
Note to self : The trip was more than perfect. Couldn't have wanted to be anywhere else in this world but there. Will always remember this trip as one of the happy days. A journey of self discovery, camaraderie, learning, and beautiful memories.
See you again Mawai.
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Away
I'm going away to My'sia for 3 days 2 nights camp, from 21/03/08 to 23/03/08.
Happy holidays to all, and happy Easter to those who celebrate it.
Hopefully I come back a better man :D
Happy holidays to all, and happy Easter to those who celebrate it.
Hopefully I come back a better man :D
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Talking is believing.
Had to mentally prepare myself for the interview this afternoon. So I did it the only way I knew how to. Talk to myself. Repeat, make me believe my words. Rephrase, rethink, step into the world of "whatever is important at the moment" and walk in the world.
Pretty impressed with my results I must say.. Did what I intended to.
Like Amir would say, play your hand, roll the dice and watch what happens. :P
And, the irony of it all, I bought a book on speaking after that. Should have bought it before :P
And it seems my technique was pretty correct, must be because I took the technique from the same guy.. But different book. Great ideas. Dale Carnegie. Great man.
I'm really looking forward to speaking to crowds and people. I have the confidence, but I want to know how to drive a message across. :)
Oh yeah, public speaking was ranked above death in the poll for fears. People rather die than speak in public. So, if you wish to conquer death, address the public :P
Pretty impressed with my results I must say.. Did what I intended to.
Like Amir would say, play your hand, roll the dice and watch what happens. :P
And, the irony of it all, I bought a book on speaking after that. Should have bought it before :P
And it seems my technique was pretty correct, must be because I took the technique from the same guy.. But different book. Great ideas. Dale Carnegie. Great man.
I'm really looking forward to speaking to crowds and people. I have the confidence, but I want to know how to drive a message across. :)
Oh yeah, public speaking was ranked above death in the poll for fears. People rather die than speak in public. So, if you wish to conquer death, address the public :P
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Friends, logic, and everything nice.
First up. Thanks to my friends. You guys know who you are.
You all told me 1 thing, at different times, but essentially same thing.
And I think there's wisdom in those words.
Sorry, but I'm a fool. I may not heed the advice.
Only you guys can appreciate what I did. How major it was, and how much it really meant.
Chin Poh will always be Chin Poh, let's just keep it that way :P
If only logic ruled the world, the world would be filled with bee hives.
That was my satire. Because insects are definitely and infinitely more efficent than humans.
We are blessed, or cursed, whichever way you look at it, with emotions.
It makes life worth living, but pain beyond measure. It ruins potential for further advancement, impends growth. But face it. We need it. It's a double edged sword.
Human needs only food, air and water to survive. But our soul, needs more than that. We need flavour, spices, fun, religion to keep us alive.
Talking is easy, doing is tough, making a decision and sticking with it is almost like walking in a desert with no water. The oasis is always ahead, but you never know if you will reach it.
Note to self : Greed is no good. But wanting things is only human, and we should strive for what we want. But, we must always keep in mind and see if it's what we want.
Quote from Amir : It's always good to build castles in the air, all you have to do after that is build the foundations for it.
What I want people to know : Just because you can't see wind, doesn't mean it doesn't exist. Just because you haven't met friends that I did, doesn't mean they don't exist. We're not unbreakable, but we fight together to make it that way. Nothing's forever, but 10 years with these guys and my life is be worth living 10 times over.
You all told me 1 thing, at different times, but essentially same thing.
And I think there's wisdom in those words.
Sorry, but I'm a fool. I may not heed the advice.
Only you guys can appreciate what I did. How major it was, and how much it really meant.
Chin Poh will always be Chin Poh, let's just keep it that way :P
If only logic ruled the world, the world would be filled with bee hives.
That was my satire. Because insects are definitely and infinitely more efficent than humans.
We are blessed, or cursed, whichever way you look at it, with emotions.
It makes life worth living, but pain beyond measure. It ruins potential for further advancement, impends growth. But face it. We need it. It's a double edged sword.
Human needs only food, air and water to survive. But our soul, needs more than that. We need flavour, spices, fun, religion to keep us alive.
Talking is easy, doing is tough, making a decision and sticking with it is almost like walking in a desert with no water. The oasis is always ahead, but you never know if you will reach it.
Note to self : Greed is no good. But wanting things is only human, and we should strive for what we want. But, we must always keep in mind and see if it's what we want.
Quote from Amir : It's always good to build castles in the air, all you have to do after that is build the foundations for it.
What I want people to know : Just because you can't see wind, doesn't mean it doesn't exist. Just because you haven't met friends that I did, doesn't mean they don't exist. We're not unbreakable, but we fight together to make it that way. Nothing's forever, but 10 years with these guys and my life is be worth living 10 times over.
Saturday, March 8, 2008
Away, and back again
The purpose of my trip to Malaysia : Away from it all.
Had been haunted by family and personal thoughts.
Realisation number 1. Speaking to people, helps. Or not.
Why? They affect you. They tell you what they think is good. Older people tend to have more experiences. They share their experiences and we, the younger ones, gain from it. You tend to sway from your original intentions, think of the easy way out. (If you were planning on attempting something diffcult or big)
But, I always keep in mind that this is my life. What I went through, who I'm, what I've done and my choices. They have made me, or everyone unique in their own ways. We are all unique.
When someone seems too good to be true, they usually are. Usually.
What makes me think that I'm different? Because I choose to be.
This trip was for me to take time off, to get away from these thoughts that smothered me worse than the pack of flies in Malaysia.
It was a good trip, with friends. And met interesting people. Sorry I didn't try to get into anyone's good books, it was a trip for myself.
Realisation number 2. Times are different.
Kids these days. I don't understand them.
Realisation number 3. Tuas and woodlands checkpoint are interesting places but I was lucky.
I made a mistake of telling the bus driver to use the woodlands checkpoint when the rest of the 9 buses were using the tuas link. LOL. Thanks to the arrangement which was 1 bus from My'sia to Singapore, I didn't make any big irreversible fault.
There's someone up there looking out for me. But, HE only helped me because I helped myself.
Thanks.
Note to self : It's good to be back in Singapore. Back to the warm showers, pillows and memories that I will treasure.
Had been haunted by family and personal thoughts.
Realisation number 1. Speaking to people, helps. Or not.
Why? They affect you. They tell you what they think is good. Older people tend to have more experiences. They share their experiences and we, the younger ones, gain from it. You tend to sway from your original intentions, think of the easy way out. (If you were planning on attempting something diffcult or big)
But, I always keep in mind that this is my life. What I went through, who I'm, what I've done and my choices. They have made me, or everyone unique in their own ways. We are all unique.
When someone seems too good to be true, they usually are. Usually.
What makes me think that I'm different? Because I choose to be.
This trip was for me to take time off, to get away from these thoughts that smothered me worse than the pack of flies in Malaysia.
It was a good trip, with friends. And met interesting people. Sorry I didn't try to get into anyone's good books, it was a trip for myself.
Realisation number 2. Times are different.
Kids these days. I don't understand them.
Realisation number 3. Tuas and woodlands checkpoint are interesting places but I was lucky.
I made a mistake of telling the bus driver to use the woodlands checkpoint when the rest of the 9 buses were using the tuas link. LOL. Thanks to the arrangement which was 1 bus from My'sia to Singapore, I didn't make any big irreversible fault.
There's someone up there looking out for me. But, HE only helped me because I helped myself.
Thanks.
Note to self : It's good to be back in Singapore. Back to the warm showers, pillows and memories that I will treasure.
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Camping
Eat your hearts out.
Going to My'sia to run camps :P
Be away from 05/03/08 to 08/03/08.
Anything, leave me a message.
And for those who know my house number. Don't call.
My family doesn't know, and they don't need to. Thanks.
Going to My'sia to run camps :P
Be away from 05/03/08 to 08/03/08.
Anything, leave me a message.
And for those who know my house number. Don't call.
My family doesn't know, and they don't need to. Thanks.
Get This.
Annoying.
Brother asked me to make myself available today for family gathering.
I lost count on the number of times they nagged at me for missing out on family outings. Said I didn't care, don't give a shit about the family.
Now?
I've been going, can't remember the last one I missed. What do I get for the effort? Them asking me if I'm going. Apparently they don't want me there.
Get this. Don't give birth if you don't want kids. Kill your brothers if you don't like them. Save me the trouble and the pain. :)
*Home, full of... anger.
Only good thing that came out of it?
Pumpkin ginko nut yam paste. It's a killer.
Think it's the.. 100th time at least that they asked me which university I'm going and the course I'm taking.
Note to everyone : If you cannot remember, or can't be bothered to, don't ask. It annoys the person. Tells the person you don't care, and you got nothing to say to the person. In that case, just shut up. Most probably the person doesn't need you to say anything. It's a social thing. Be a vase. :)
Brother asked me to make myself available today for family gathering.
I lost count on the number of times they nagged at me for missing out on family outings. Said I didn't care, don't give a shit about the family.
Now?
I've been going, can't remember the last one I missed. What do I get for the effort? Them asking me if I'm going. Apparently they don't want me there.
Get this. Don't give birth if you don't want kids. Kill your brothers if you don't like them. Save me the trouble and the pain. :)
*Home, full of... anger.
Only good thing that came out of it?
Pumpkin ginko nut yam paste. It's a killer.
Think it's the.. 100th time at least that they asked me which university I'm going and the course I'm taking.
Note to everyone : If you cannot remember, or can't be bothered to, don't ask. It annoys the person. Tells the person you don't care, and you got nothing to say to the person. In that case, just shut up. Most probably the person doesn't need you to say anything. It's a social thing. Be a vase. :)
The Body and Mind
Just came home from a hospital visit.
2 things that struck me.
1.) The Body
2.) The Mind
1.) My uncle was admitted to the hospital due to a bad fall. He had cuts and bruises all over his body. They looked pretty bad to me. But it seemed like, he didn't even notice them. I spoke to the nurse, they're just asking him to stay for rehab and monitoring of BP cause he's an ex stroke patient.
Know something?
He's a heavy smoker. But he's not suffering any withdrawal sympthoms. On top of that, he still wants to walk around. He seems strong enough to beat me in a fight in his condition. Old timers are tough.
2.) When I was helping him clean up after eating, and while watching him eat, I realised that I had a lot more feeling for him than my dad. I saw similarities between my uncle and me. I tried to imagine my dad lying down in the bed. All that came to my mind was, "He can go fuck off and die."
Hmmmmm...
But that's real strange.
Cause in terms of caring for me, logically I can tell that my dad did more than my uncle. He did care for me when I had my fracture and subsequent injuries. But, if he's the one lying down, all I know is that I'll be looking at "my dad". The asshole whom I swore never to be when I grew up.
The fact that I can type this out means.. Okay, I've given it some thought. And maybe when he does land in the hospital.. I will visit him, and take care of him. But it kinda annoys me that I'm blinded. Sorta.
I think I'm surrounding myself with nice music to block out all the shit that I may otherwise hear.
Guns N Roses FTW.
2 things that struck me.
1.) The Body
2.) The Mind
1.) My uncle was admitted to the hospital due to a bad fall. He had cuts and bruises all over his body. They looked pretty bad to me. But it seemed like, he didn't even notice them. I spoke to the nurse, they're just asking him to stay for rehab and monitoring of BP cause he's an ex stroke patient.
Know something?
He's a heavy smoker. But he's not suffering any withdrawal sympthoms. On top of that, he still wants to walk around. He seems strong enough to beat me in a fight in his condition. Old timers are tough.
2.) When I was helping him clean up after eating, and while watching him eat, I realised that I had a lot more feeling for him than my dad. I saw similarities between my uncle and me. I tried to imagine my dad lying down in the bed. All that came to my mind was, "He can go fuck off and die."
Hmmmmm...
But that's real strange.
Cause in terms of caring for me, logically I can tell that my dad did more than my uncle. He did care for me when I had my fracture and subsequent injuries. But, if he's the one lying down, all I know is that I'll be looking at "my dad". The asshole whom I swore never to be when I grew up.
The fact that I can type this out means.. Okay, I've given it some thought. And maybe when he does land in the hospital.. I will visit him, and take care of him. But it kinda annoys me that I'm blinded. Sorta.
I think I'm surrounding myself with nice music to block out all the shit that I may otherwise hear.
Guns N Roses FTW.
An interesting Question
I got this from "Rule Of Four", a international best seller.
A well is 10 feet deep, and a frog is at the bottom of the well.
The frog can climb 3 feet up in the daytime, but slides 2 feet down when it is sleeping.
How long will it take the frog to get out of the well?
There was no correct answer in the book, just suggestions.
1. Never. The frog will give up after 2 days. It is a frog, has to eat and all, not concerned about climbing out of the well.
2. Any answer. Some will assume this question is testing creativity, just something fanciful will suffice.
3. Maths. This may be the most common route poeple will tackle this question. However, let's take it step by step.
The frog travels up 3 feet, but slides 2 feet. Hence:
Distance travelled by Frog = 3 - 2
= 1 feet.
Distance to be travelled = 10 feet.
Hence, Time taken for Frog to travel out of well = 10/1 + 1
= 11 Days.
Mathematically, WRONG.
Why?
Distance travelled in a day by Frog = 1 feet.
However, on start the 8th day, Frog has travelled 7 feet up.
Since he travels up 3 feet in daytime, and slides down only when he sleeps, he will hop happily out of the well on the 8th day.
Interesting isn't it? :)
A well is 10 feet deep, and a frog is at the bottom of the well.
The frog can climb 3 feet up in the daytime, but slides 2 feet down when it is sleeping.
How long will it take the frog to get out of the well?
There was no correct answer in the book, just suggestions.
1. Never. The frog will give up after 2 days. It is a frog, has to eat and all, not concerned about climbing out of the well.
2. Any answer. Some will assume this question is testing creativity, just something fanciful will suffice.
3. Maths. This may be the most common route poeple will tackle this question. However, let's take it step by step.
The frog travels up 3 feet, but slides 2 feet. Hence:
Distance travelled by Frog = 3 - 2
= 1 feet.
Distance to be travelled = 10 feet.
Hence, Time taken for Frog to travel out of well = 10/1 + 1
= 11 Days.
Mathematically, WRONG.
Why?
Distance travelled in a day by Frog = 1 feet.
However, on start the 8th day, Frog has travelled 7 feet up.
Since he travels up 3 feet in daytime, and slides down only when he sleeps, he will hop happily out of the well on the 8th day.
Interesting isn't it? :)
Teaching
I was told an inspiring story by a very wise person recently:
The star fish story:
A boy and his grandpa was at the beach. The boy picked up starfishes and threw them into the sea.
Grandpa : Why are you doing that?
Boy : I want to save the starfishes.
Grandpa : But there is so many of them, you won't make any difference.
The boy picked one up and threw it into the sea.
Boy: This one will.
Big or small, we make differences in people's life.
That's what I hope to achieve when I become a teacher. To make a difference.
I'm inspiried by all the teachers who taught me. They all made a difference in me. Be it the good or lousy teachers. This may sound strange, but lousy teachers made me treasure the good ones, and respect them, plus I know what to not to do in the future.
For me, I strongly believe everyone has enough intelligence to make it through the education system. Studying is not about liking books. It's about caring for yourself, and giving more options to yourself. Since you're gonna spend the years in school, why not have fun and do well in studies? It can be done. It's just the environment that prevents them from seeing that it can be done. They're wearing coloured glasses. I want to let them see the new things, open new paths for them.
Thanks to Michelle, for telling me the story.
The star fish story:
A boy and his grandpa was at the beach. The boy picked up starfishes and threw them into the sea.
Grandpa : Why are you doing that?
Boy : I want to save the starfishes.
Grandpa : But there is so many of them, you won't make any difference.
The boy picked one up and threw it into the sea.
Boy: This one will.
Big or small, we make differences in people's life.
That's what I hope to achieve when I become a teacher. To make a difference.
I'm inspiried by all the teachers who taught me. They all made a difference in me. Be it the good or lousy teachers. This may sound strange, but lousy teachers made me treasure the good ones, and respect them, plus I know what to not to do in the future.
For me, I strongly believe everyone has enough intelligence to make it through the education system. Studying is not about liking books. It's about caring for yourself, and giving more options to yourself. Since you're gonna spend the years in school, why not have fun and do well in studies? It can be done. It's just the environment that prevents them from seeing that it can be done. They're wearing coloured glasses. I want to let them see the new things, open new paths for them.
Thanks to Michelle, for telling me the story.
Chew On THis
Overdue thoughts.
Sometimes in despair I curse the almighty, "Why?" I would shout.
"Why? Did you give me all that I have?"
Intelligence. This family. Choices. Joy and pain.
More than once, I've wished that I'm a simpleton. Then I wouldn't bear this burden. That I would be blind, to the things I'm missing out / missed out in my life; my father's intentions; the choices I can make and the things I can do. Or more importantly, to the pain I've gone through.
If I was dumb, born disabled, maybe I would give in to the shit I've gone through. Tell myself, there's nothing to fight for. There's no future, there's nothing waiting for me. Live a life like everyone. Play the blame game. Be an asshole without knowing it. Laugh at people whom you don't understand. Make no effort to care about the falling kid.
You have cursed me with intelligence and this experience. You have made me caring, wanting to change this world but left me powerless to do so. Maybe you gave me power, but you know what? I'm not gonna do it. I quit. Yeah.
It's time to care about myself and want someone who will care for me.
Sometimes in despair I curse the almighty, "Why?" I would shout.
"Why? Did you give me all that I have?"
Intelligence. This family. Choices. Joy and pain.
More than once, I've wished that I'm a simpleton. Then I wouldn't bear this burden. That I would be blind, to the things I'm missing out / missed out in my life; my father's intentions; the choices I can make and the things I can do. Or more importantly, to the pain I've gone through.
If I was dumb, born disabled, maybe I would give in to the shit I've gone through. Tell myself, there's nothing to fight for. There's no future, there's nothing waiting for me. Live a life like everyone. Play the blame game. Be an asshole without knowing it. Laugh at people whom you don't understand. Make no effort to care about the falling kid.
You have cursed me with intelligence and this experience. You have made me caring, wanting to change this world but left me powerless to do so. Maybe you gave me power, but you know what? I'm not gonna do it. I quit. Yeah.
It's time to care about myself and want someone who will care for me.
First Step
I guess this is the kinda rare day in your life that you get enough energy or inspiration to write 2 blog entries.
I'm stepping out. Or rather, I did.
Thank you Nadiah, for all the things you did for me and all the support you gave me.
Thanks Iris, for letting me see things that I was blind to.
I'm going to apply for the teaching award by MOE, aka I'm gonna be a teacher.
I know that's like the last thing many people in this world will link me to, but, hey, you'll be surprised.
Thanks to the few teachers that made me the person I'm today, I see the lack of inspiring teachers that can really change one's life.
I like to look back in my old days (if I live that long) and tell myself that I made a positive impact in people's life. God knows how much I needed a good teacher and how they can really be someone's inspiration.
Most of us will never be great man, but we can do small things in a great way. And that's who I want to be.
I'm stepping out. Or rather, I did.
Thank you Nadiah, for all the things you did for me and all the support you gave me.
Thanks Iris, for letting me see things that I was blind to.
I'm going to apply for the teaching award by MOE, aka I'm gonna be a teacher.
I know that's like the last thing many people in this world will link me to, but, hey, you'll be surprised.
Thanks to the few teachers that made me the person I'm today, I see the lack of inspiring teachers that can really change one's life.
I like to look back in my old days (if I live that long) and tell myself that I made a positive impact in people's life. God knows how much I needed a good teacher and how they can really be someone's inspiration.
Most of us will never be great man, but we can do small things in a great way. And that's who I want to be.
Me
You watch movies, television programmes, read books and you see jerks all over the place. You feel like punching them, spitting on them, laying the smack down on them.
What if you're one of them?
Maybe these guys didn't know what they were doing is wrong. Or what they were never taught what was right.
I know I'm not prefect. I never said I was. But I never knew I was so messed up. I never guessed all the things I did was wrong. I didn't mean to hurt you. I don't know.
One day happy, one day sad.
Never ending cycle.
What if you're one of them?
Maybe these guys didn't know what they were doing is wrong. Or what they were never taught what was right.
I know I'm not prefect. I never said I was. But I never knew I was so messed up. I never guessed all the things I did was wrong. I didn't mean to hurt you. I don't know.
One day happy, one day sad.
Never ending cycle.
Thanks For Coming
A big thanks to all who came to the BBQ last night.
It was great, and only happened because you guys make it great :)
Thanks to JJ for the ice box, zad for the ride to pick up the food, Boss for the radio(think I forgot to mention this last night, sorry), Sai, Amir, Ameer for helping to bring the stuff from my place, everyone for taking the time off to come despite busy schedules and commitments.
Thanks to Qi Qi, who called to wish me fun, Nadiah, who was worried but knew I was in good hands.
Life is short, that's why we must make it beautiful while it lasts.
Haven't had so much fun, laughter and joy in a long while.
Thanks for the great time.
It was great, and only happened because you guys make it great :)
Thanks to JJ for the ice box, zad for the ride to pick up the food, Boss for the radio(think I forgot to mention this last night, sorry), Sai, Amir, Ameer for helping to bring the stuff from my place, everyone for taking the time off to come despite busy schedules and commitments.
Thanks to Qi Qi, who called to wish me fun, Nadiah, who was worried but knew I was in good hands.
Life is short, that's why we must make it beautiful while it lasts.
Haven't had so much fun, laughter and joy in a long while.
Thanks for the great time.
Looks Can Be Deceiving
Presentation is the key to success.
Look at SMU, a business orientated University.
They're protrayed as hip and happening, capable of producing successful young people. This is done through their brillant marketing, as expected of a business U.
Chinese New Year. The day of the red packets.
Presentation, too, is the key to everything.
I recieved 13 red packets this year, 7 long, 6 short.
Somehow I link the long ones to success. Success being more money :P
Of these, I received 4 red packets with $4 inside. This may seem little, but take into consideration that 5 are the big ones. 3 from my brothers, 1 from dad and 1 from grandma. So it's effectively 8 packets from relatives, 4 >$10, 4 = $4. 1/2 of it then.
So, out of the 4, 3 of them are long red packets.
But somehow opening them and seeing the 2 purple $2 didn't make me feel so bad than seeing the stubby ones and finding $4 inside.
Looks can be deceiving and presentation is the key to success. :)
Look at SMU, a business orientated University.
They're protrayed as hip and happening, capable of producing successful young people. This is done through their brillant marketing, as expected of a business U.
Chinese New Year. The day of the red packets.
Presentation, too, is the key to everything.
I recieved 13 red packets this year, 7 long, 6 short.
Somehow I link the long ones to success. Success being more money :P
Of these, I received 4 red packets with $4 inside. This may seem little, but take into consideration that 5 are the big ones. 3 from my brothers, 1 from dad and 1 from grandma. So it's effectively 8 packets from relatives, 4 >$10, 4 = $4. 1/2 of it then.
So, out of the 4, 3 of them are long red packets.
But somehow opening them and seeing the 2 purple $2 didn't make me feel so bad than seeing the stubby ones and finding $4 inside.
Looks can be deceiving and presentation is the key to success. :)
Food For BBQ
BBQ Place : Pasir Ris Park BBQ Pit 45
List of food for 10/02/08 BBQ :
Name: Qty:
Otah 30
Chicken Satay 50
Mutton Satay 50
Joint Wing (BBQ) 20
Joint Wing (Red Hot) 20
Chicken Chop (Smoked BBQ) 10
Chicken (Black Pepper) 10
Sting Ray 10
Sambal Sotong 10
Hot Dog 20
Marshmellow 1pkt
Want more tell me :D
Drinks = COKE
List of food for 10/02/08 BBQ :
Name: Qty:
Otah 30
Chicken Satay 50
Mutton Satay 50
Joint Wing (BBQ) 20
Joint Wing (Red Hot) 20
Chicken Chop (Smoked BBQ) 10
Chicken (Black Pepper) 10
Sting Ray 10
Sambal Sotong 10
Hot Dog 20
Marshmellow 1pkt
Want more tell me :D
Drinks = COKE
Home Cooked Food
I never thought it was possible to miss something that you didn't have.
Or maybe the memory is so faint that I can't remember if it was real or a figment of my imagination.
For years, 7, I think, I've not enjoyed home cooked food.
What is home cooked food?
It's food that is cooked at home. With a catch. It involves eating it with people who cares about you. People whom you sit down with at the dinner table and talk about things which are important. Things which may mean nothing to a stranger sitting at the same table but everything to you.
I've been eating out everyday for as long as I can remember, with my fork and spoon as my constant dinner companions.
I guess it's only human to want something once in a while.
Or maybe the memory is so faint that I can't remember if it was real or a figment of my imagination.
For years, 7, I think, I've not enjoyed home cooked food.
What is home cooked food?
It's food that is cooked at home. With a catch. It involves eating it with people who cares about you. People whom you sit down with at the dinner table and talk about things which are important. Things which may mean nothing to a stranger sitting at the same table but everything to you.
I've been eating out everyday for as long as I can remember, with my fork and spoon as my constant dinner companions.
I guess it's only human to want something once in a while.
Me
What have I, but a name?
Who am I, but a name?
Will I be, but a name?
A name, now, which can be discarded, forgotten or ignored.
Who am I, but a name?
Will I be, but a name?
A name, now, which can be discarded, forgotten or ignored.
1001 Things
Busy week.
Needed to catch up on Zzzzs.
Work was okay.
Had 1000 things on my mind. Until the 1 important thing came up, now it's 1001.
Had issues that I saw WAS important and wanted to blog it.
WAS. Not is. No longer concerned.
The human mind is interesting. So is human behavior.
But knowing that you cannot change it doesn't change anything.
Study it, understand it, use it.
Change is the only constant.
Desire is the only driving force.
Pain is the only thing that tells you you're alive.
Anger is just a fuel.
Thinking is necessary.
Monopoly is the only way to guarantee success.
Needed to catch up on Zzzzs.
Work was okay.
Had 1000 things on my mind. Until the 1 important thing came up, now it's 1001.
Had issues that I saw WAS important and wanted to blog it.
WAS. Not is. No longer concerned.
The human mind is interesting. So is human behavior.
But knowing that you cannot change it doesn't change anything.
Study it, understand it, use it.
Change is the only constant.
Desire is the only driving force.
Pain is the only thing that tells you you're alive.
Anger is just a fuel.
Thinking is necessary.
Monopoly is the only way to guarantee success.
If You Could See Me Now
The book "If You Could See Me Now" is written by Cecelia Ahern. It's one of the best books I've read. It's up there along with George Orwell's "1984", David Eddings' "The Redemption of Althalus" and all of David Gemmell's books.
Let's look at the two main characters. Elizabeth Egan is a woman who is in control of her life. She acts like any adult would, keeping to themselves, strict to kids, drinks tons of coffee and taking responsibilities for her family and herself. She puts on a false front because of her childhood and vow never to allow her emotions to get better of her.
Ivan elbisivni, first appears as Luke's imaginary friend. He comes from Ekam Eveileb, which in case you think I have a serious case of mis-spelling (which is true), the wierd words are spelt backwards. Ivan is a happy, fun loving guy. He loves to have fun like a kid but is incredibly smart at the same time.
You can guess what happens. Elizabeth couldn't see Ivan initially but eventually she did. First time was when she needed him. And that sparked off a beautiful relationship between the two of them. Ivan taught Elizabeth how to have fun and they fell in love. However, this love, like love sometimes, cannot be fulfilled because of reasons that we cannot comprehend.
Also, because of Ivan, Elizabeth could face her childhood and finally reunites with her father. A gap so wide that the longest bridge in this world cannot even hope to bridge. She also started expanding her social life and accepting people into her heart.
I cried while reading the book. No shame. It's so touching. First when Opal's lover died, and his last moment was to reach out to wipe her tears away. Second when I found out about her mother's real behavior and many times after that. And it brings tears to my eyes when I think about the book.
Thanks to Iris for lending me this book.
Let's look at the two main characters. Elizabeth Egan is a woman who is in control of her life. She acts like any adult would, keeping to themselves, strict to kids, drinks tons of coffee and taking responsibilities for her family and herself. She puts on a false front because of her childhood and vow never to allow her emotions to get better of her.
Ivan elbisivni, first appears as Luke's imaginary friend. He comes from Ekam Eveileb, which in case you think I have a serious case of mis-spelling (which is true), the wierd words are spelt backwards. Ivan is a happy, fun loving guy. He loves to have fun like a kid but is incredibly smart at the same time.
You can guess what happens. Elizabeth couldn't see Ivan initially but eventually she did. First time was when she needed him. And that sparked off a beautiful relationship between the two of them. Ivan taught Elizabeth how to have fun and they fell in love. However, this love, like love sometimes, cannot be fulfilled because of reasons that we cannot comprehend.
Also, because of Ivan, Elizabeth could face her childhood and finally reunites with her father. A gap so wide that the longest bridge in this world cannot even hope to bridge. She also started expanding her social life and accepting people into her heart.
I cried while reading the book. No shame. It's so touching. First when Opal's lover died, and his last moment was to reach out to wipe her tears away. Second when I found out about her mother's real behavior and many times after that. And it brings tears to my eyes when I think about the book.
Thanks to Iris for lending me this book.
Size Matters
I was reading a book and due to undisclosed reasons I did research on Singapore. I downloaded Google Earth.
For all those who have no idea what Google Earth is, I strongly recommend http://earth.google.com/. Go read it up and download the programme.
I was of course, interested in looking for whatever I was looking for and then I played around with the programme. I looked for my house and several other people's and future possible places I want to visit.
When I zoomed in to look at other parts of Singapore, my thought was.. Oh, that's cool, I don't have to travel 1 hour to look at this building. Wow, just a few seconds. And after a few minutes of doing that.
It hit me.
It takes no more than a few seconds to scroll from one end of Singapore to another. When i zoomed OUT. I was like. OMG. THE WORLD IS HUGE.
And I've lived at this.. Small little dot of the world for 20 years. How long will it take me to travel around it? 1000 years? More importantly, how much more am I gonna see if I go out of this little dot? The world is so much more!! And I've lived in this little shell my whole life.
Note to self : Travel. The world is so BIG. There's definitely a place where I belong. :)
For all those who have no idea what Google Earth is, I strongly recommend http://earth.google.com/. Go read it up and download the programme.
I was of course, interested in looking for whatever I was looking for and then I played around with the programme. I looked for my house and several other people's and future possible places I want to visit.
When I zoomed in to look at other parts of Singapore, my thought was.. Oh, that's cool, I don't have to travel 1 hour to look at this building. Wow, just a few seconds. And after a few minutes of doing that.
It hit me.
It takes no more than a few seconds to scroll from one end of Singapore to another. When i zoomed OUT. I was like. OMG. THE WORLD IS HUGE.
And I've lived at this.. Small little dot of the world for 20 years. How long will it take me to travel around it? 1000 years? More importantly, how much more am I gonna see if I go out of this little dot? The world is so much more!! And I've lived in this little shell my whole life.
Note to self : Travel. The world is so BIG. There's definitely a place where I belong. :)
Pendragon : The Merchant Of Death
Okay. Big question. How do you pronounce "Pendragon"?
The book is a fantasy book, written by D.J Machale, a guy. (I know this only after reading the author's paragraph for giving thanks which so far every author has written one and he mentions "wife". Hope he's not a les.)
So the book is about Bobby and his adventures to a world called Denduron, yet another word I have no clue how to pronounce. Bobby discovers he's a traveller, nope, not the thirsty traveller, but one who can travel through portals across space and time (every kid's dream.. or not.)
So this book is realistic. Yeah, we dream of being a hero who saves the world. But we would do in the comfort of our room, in front of our computer or TV and a glass of ice cold coke to quench our thirst. If any of us were thrown into having to wear some of the wierd looking clothes and use axes/arrows to shoot someone, we probably have "Game Over" printed across our forehead.
So Bobby decides that kicking butts and leading a revolution is not thing he is good at. In fact, he messes up almost on every occassion. Even when peeping on a girl bathing. How loser can you get? :P
But like all heroes and stories, he pulls through, and somehow saves the terrority from ultimate chaos. Wow, surprised.
2 things that annoy me in this book.
One, the story is told in journals written by Bobby. Which to me is highly unrealistic. The way he wrote it so clearly made it feel like your there. And a journal that has so much detail would require you the same amount of time to write it as you actually spent time doing it. So he does through an incredible ordeal in 2 days.. But he can write everything in 1 hour? Nah. Bullshit. ALSO, it's like, wow, he wrote a journal. Look, so it means.. He's alive. No matter what danger he was in, he managed to survive. No cold sweat from me.
Another thing is the concept of balance. I thought about it before. But after the "Matrix", it's like every book, movie, theme, whatever is all based on balance. Like, wtf? It's a good concept and all, but right now it's like everyone is balantly bringing out this concept. Good and evil must have balance.. Blah blah. Can't they put it in a more subtle manner? :S
Currently reading "If you could see me now" by Cecelia Ahern.
Thanks to Iris for her great recommendations. :D
The book is a fantasy book, written by D.J Machale, a guy. (I know this only after reading the author's paragraph for giving thanks which so far every author has written one and he mentions "wife". Hope he's not a les.)
So the book is about Bobby and his adventures to a world called Denduron, yet another word I have no clue how to pronounce. Bobby discovers he's a traveller, nope, not the thirsty traveller, but one who can travel through portals across space and time (every kid's dream.. or not.)
So this book is realistic. Yeah, we dream of being a hero who saves the world. But we would do in the comfort of our room, in front of our computer or TV and a glass of ice cold coke to quench our thirst. If any of us were thrown into having to wear some of the wierd looking clothes and use axes/arrows to shoot someone, we probably have "Game Over" printed across our forehead.
So Bobby decides that kicking butts and leading a revolution is not thing he is good at. In fact, he messes up almost on every occassion. Even when peeping on a girl bathing. How loser can you get? :P
But like all heroes and stories, he pulls through, and somehow saves the terrority from ultimate chaos. Wow, surprised.
2 things that annoy me in this book.
One, the story is told in journals written by Bobby. Which to me is highly unrealistic. The way he wrote it so clearly made it feel like your there. And a journal that has so much detail would require you the same amount of time to write it as you actually spent time doing it. So he does through an incredible ordeal in 2 days.. But he can write everything in 1 hour? Nah. Bullshit. ALSO, it's like, wow, he wrote a journal. Look, so it means.. He's alive. No matter what danger he was in, he managed to survive. No cold sweat from me.
Another thing is the concept of balance. I thought about it before. But after the "Matrix", it's like every book, movie, theme, whatever is all based on balance. Like, wtf? It's a good concept and all, but right now it's like everyone is balantly bringing out this concept. Good and evil must have balance.. Blah blah. Can't they put it in a more subtle manner? :S
Currently reading "If you could see me now" by Cecelia Ahern.
Thanks to Iris for her great recommendations. :D
Death Note
I know this manga/comic "Death Note" is rather old.. And the reason I'm writing about it is because I was re-reading some of my comics and I saw a trailer for a sequel for Death Note the movie.. So perhaps the idea and all is worth a mention.
In case you have no clue, "Death Note" is based on a note book, which bestows its user the power to kill others by writing their name on the book.
The book, was dropped by a death god in his boredom and picked up by a kid who was bored. And this turned into an epic battle between 2 person of great intellect.
My point is, when a human is given the power (to kill) or absolute power over others, or the ability to instill fear into them, they change. They believe they are different. Better than others maybe. And in David Gemmell's books, it's the same.
Power Corrupts.
In case you have no clue, "Death Note" is based on a note book, which bestows its user the power to kill others by writing their name on the book.
The book, was dropped by a death god in his boredom and picked up by a kid who was bored. And this turned into an epic battle between 2 person of great intellect.
My point is, when a human is given the power (to kill) or absolute power over others, or the ability to instill fear into them, they change. They believe they are different. Better than others maybe. And in David Gemmell's books, it's the same.
Power Corrupts.
Walking
Walking.
You've been doing it since you were a child.
You do it everyday.
Unconsciously, most probably.
It's like having 5 fingers, 2 hands and all your normal body parts. You don't treasure them. They're there.
I do. At least now I treasure walking.
After 2 weeks of being out of action, not being able to walk, it feels really good to walk again. No more crutches, no more hopping.
It's similar to how we don't treasure things till we lose it..
Our family, our relationships. We don't treasure our loved ones as much as we should.
Until we lose them. Reminds me of my brothers towards my mum.
It's too late. At least, to me.
The destination is no doubt important. The concepts/ideas no doubt crucial. But the journey, WILL matter the most in the end.
I challenge all of you.
To go out, and give what your loved ones deserve. It's not easy. But you won't regret doing it.
Thanks Iris.
You've been doing it since you were a child.
You do it everyday.
Unconsciously, most probably.
It's like having 5 fingers, 2 hands and all your normal body parts. You don't treasure them. They're there.
I do. At least now I treasure walking.
After 2 weeks of being out of action, not being able to walk, it feels really good to walk again. No more crutches, no more hopping.
It's similar to how we don't treasure things till we lose it..
Our family, our relationships. We don't treasure our loved ones as much as we should.
Until we lose them. Reminds me of my brothers towards my mum.
It's too late. At least, to me.
The destination is no doubt important. The concepts/ideas no doubt crucial. But the journey, WILL matter the most in the end.
I challenge all of you.
To go out, and give what your loved ones deserve. It's not easy. But you won't regret doing it.
Thanks Iris.
Fallen Queen
Today is the celebration of my grandma's birthday.
Erm, we actually don't know her real birthday. But we celebrate it at the last Sunday before schools reopens.
Like every year since I have memories, we (the big gang of people) gathered together at my grandma's place to have lunch, spend time together and go and have dinner.
The feeling is like.. different.
Why?
Maybe I've grown older.
Not true.
It's like.. Everyone is so busy and caught one with their own things. When we were kids we just enjoyed being together. It's like now, my brothers and everyone has their own family (Which keeps them off my back, a good thing) but everyone really seems too caught up in their world to care about others.
My grandma is much older than I last remember her to be. Her eye bags under her eyes make her look so sad. And she no longer has the physical power to do a lot of stuff without help.
And perhaps the saddest thing is, people don't care. It used to be, grandma says, you do. Now it's like, grandma says, you agree, but do otherwise behind her back. There's so much disagreement and unhappiness.
I used to look at grandma like she's unbeatable. She's the queen of the house, and the person who owns everything and everyone. She used to be. She didn't change. They did. It's so sad to me. It's like I'm the only one who cares about her.
Happy Birthday Grandma. You'll always be the Queen In My Heart.
Erm, we actually don't know her real birthday. But we celebrate it at the last Sunday before schools reopens.
Like every year since I have memories, we (the big gang of people) gathered together at my grandma's place to have lunch, spend time together and go and have dinner.
The feeling is like.. different.
Why?
Maybe I've grown older.
Not true.
It's like.. Everyone is so busy and caught one with their own things. When we were kids we just enjoyed being together. It's like now, my brothers and everyone has their own family (Which keeps them off my back, a good thing) but everyone really seems too caught up in their world to care about others.
My grandma is much older than I last remember her to be. Her eye bags under her eyes make her look so sad. And she no longer has the physical power to do a lot of stuff without help.
And perhaps the saddest thing is, people don't care. It used to be, grandma says, you do. Now it's like, grandma says, you agree, but do otherwise behind her back. There's so much disagreement and unhappiness.
I used to look at grandma like she's unbeatable. She's the queen of the house, and the person who owns everything and everyone. She used to be. She didn't change. They did. It's so sad to me. It's like I'm the only one who cares about her.
Happy Birthday Grandma. You'll always be the Queen In My Heart.
Losing
It sucks to lose.
There's no doubt about that.
The bitter feeling, the anger, the desire to take revenge just makes you feel so negative.
But is it bad?
I've been playing dota for close to 3 years now.
I'm a Pro.
No doubt.
How did I get so good? By winning?
No.
By losing.
No kidding.
When did I improve the most in my game?
When I was losing badly.
Getting my ass kicked, getting laughed at, being called a noob.
I was losing like nobody's business.
But I was with my friends and we wanted to win.
If we had lost heart and were afraid of losing, we would have never gotten as good as we are.
We analysed why we lost, what we could have done better for hours, day in day out. An onlooker friend told us that if he didn't play the game, he would have thought us generals commanding a battlefield.
Losing fueled our desire to become better.
If we won, we actually became complacent.
At one point we thought we were damn good. Then we lost terribly to another team. And that made us realise that we weren't good enough.
And we learnt from our mistakes. And from there we became truly strong.
We've met countless people who thought they're damn good.
And when they lose they give 1001 reasons as to why they lose.
They never thought of 1001 ways to become strong. Which we did.
When we were on a winning streak, I think close to maybe 100 games, the joy of winning wore off.
We realised that the most fun part of playing is growing. Becoming better, playing with people who were better.
Pushing ourselves to our limit. And really loving the game for its design. The limitless possibilty. Won't go further into the why DOTA is so attractive.
It's a test of skill, wit and teamwork. Trust in friends too.
So is losing bad?
Not if you take it as a positive thing. That you have much to learn, that's why you lose.
And which also means you must win when you can. So to make the person competing against you realise that the person has much to learn.
So go out there and win. And hold your head high when you lose. Learn. And become better :D
There's no doubt about that.
The bitter feeling, the anger, the desire to take revenge just makes you feel so negative.
But is it bad?
I've been playing dota for close to 3 years now.
I'm a Pro.
No doubt.
How did I get so good? By winning?
No.
By losing.
No kidding.
When did I improve the most in my game?
When I was losing badly.
Getting my ass kicked, getting laughed at, being called a noob.
I was losing like nobody's business.
But I was with my friends and we wanted to win.
If we had lost heart and were afraid of losing, we would have never gotten as good as we are.
We analysed why we lost, what we could have done better for hours, day in day out. An onlooker friend told us that if he didn't play the game, he would have thought us generals commanding a battlefield.
Losing fueled our desire to become better.
If we won, we actually became complacent.
At one point we thought we were damn good. Then we lost terribly to another team. And that made us realise that we weren't good enough.
And we learnt from our mistakes. And from there we became truly strong.
We've met countless people who thought they're damn good.
And when they lose they give 1001 reasons as to why they lose.
They never thought of 1001 ways to become strong. Which we did.
When we were on a winning streak, I think close to maybe 100 games, the joy of winning wore off.
We realised that the most fun part of playing is growing. Becoming better, playing with people who were better.
Pushing ourselves to our limit. And really loving the game for its design. The limitless possibilty. Won't go further into the why DOTA is so attractive.
It's a test of skill, wit and teamwork. Trust in friends too.
So is losing bad?
Not if you take it as a positive thing. That you have much to learn, that's why you lose.
And which also means you must win when you can. So to make the person competing against you realise that the person has much to learn.
So go out there and win. And hold your head high when you lose. Learn. And become better :D
Stick Figures
Have you ever wondered about stick figures?
In Singapore MRTs, there's 2 yellow signs.
One which shows a stick figure giving up his seat to another bent stick figure leaning on a cane.
Some people will say, "A guy giving up his seat to an old man."
The human brain is great isn't it? We can draw such conclusions immediately. We may not even consider them stick figures, but people we see on the train.
The other sign is a stick figure giving up his seat to another with big belly in a skirt, and holding onto a small stick figure.
Again, "There's a guy giving up his seat to a pregnant lady with a child.
Why? Cause the stick figure has no hair, and we associate woman with long hair. Plus, the stick figure giving up the seat is actually taller than the other 2. The size of the small one tells us it's a kid. And the big belly together with holding the small figure tells us it's a pregnant lady, not just a fat one. Maybe the skirt looks like a maternity dress. But we draw the right conclusions and idea anway.
Okay, so this is just in Singapore. Right?
Have you watched stick figure animations on the web? Some or most are not created by Singaporeans. But does it matter?
NO.
There's something common amongst all human society that enable us to understand and feel for something(stick figures) that even a little boy can draw.
Yes, the mind is wonderful.
But isn't the people who understands our mind and uses them to convey messages even more so?
So issit scary?
It's just like an axe. It's a tool.
It's not evil. Until someone uses it to kill/hurt someone else.
Power of mass media.
I'm a victim.
Are you?
In Singapore MRTs, there's 2 yellow signs.
One which shows a stick figure giving up his seat to another bent stick figure leaning on a cane.
Some people will say, "A guy giving up his seat to an old man."
The human brain is great isn't it? We can draw such conclusions immediately. We may not even consider them stick figures, but people we see on the train.
The other sign is a stick figure giving up his seat to another with big belly in a skirt, and holding onto a small stick figure.
Again, "There's a guy giving up his seat to a pregnant lady with a child.
Why? Cause the stick figure has no hair, and we associate woman with long hair. Plus, the stick figure giving up the seat is actually taller than the other 2. The size of the small one tells us it's a kid. And the big belly together with holding the small figure tells us it's a pregnant lady, not just a fat one. Maybe the skirt looks like a maternity dress. But we draw the right conclusions and idea anway.
Okay, so this is just in Singapore. Right?
Have you watched stick figure animations on the web? Some or most are not created by Singaporeans. But does it matter?
NO.
There's something common amongst all human society that enable us to understand and feel for something(stick figures) that even a little boy can draw.
Yes, the mind is wonderful.
But isn't the people who understands our mind and uses them to convey messages even more so?
So issit scary?
It's just like an axe. It's a tool.
It's not evil. Until someone uses it to kill/hurt someone else.
Power of mass media.
I'm a victim.
Are you?
What Do I Know?
Nothing.
That's the answer.
I realised that I WAS good. In school.
And in NS perhas.
I'm good at being good in whatever environment I'm in.
Which sucks.
If I'm nowhere, then I'm no good.
Which means I need a goal. To get myself up and working. Towards something. Not just hanging somewhere.
And to work towards what I want, I must realise that I know nothing.
Because what I know, it works only in that environment.
I must start anew.
It is tough.
I must throw away what I think is right and focus on learning new things.
My basics are wrong, what I know is incomplete. Learn anew.
Even if it means to put away my pride, which caused me my downfall.
To be an infant, to take interest in everything around me, and when learning ability is at its highest.
Learn, and perhas one day I may become someone I'll be proud of.
That's the answer.
I realised that I WAS good. In school.
And in NS perhas.
I'm good at being good in whatever environment I'm in.
Which sucks.
If I'm nowhere, then I'm no good.
Which means I need a goal. To get myself up and working. Towards something. Not just hanging somewhere.
And to work towards what I want, I must realise that I know nothing.
Because what I know, it works only in that environment.
I must start anew.
It is tough.
I must throw away what I think is right and focus on learning new things.
My basics are wrong, what I know is incomplete. Learn anew.
Even if it means to put away my pride, which caused me my downfall.
To be an infant, to take interest in everything around me, and when learning ability is at its highest.
Learn, and perhas one day I may become someone I'll be proud of.
Dé·Jà Vu
Went to the hospital.
Same thing that happened to me this year Jan 1.
See doctor.
Take X-Ray.
Put into cast.
Wait to see another doctor.
The irony almost killed me. Same thing again.
While waiting, I realised that pain is a very... interesting emotion. There's so much conflict in it.
Pain can be quiet or loud.
Loud when you experience it, quiet when you're bearing it.
Pain is not something you wish to share with others, but sharing it lessens the feeling considerably.
Pain tells you your alive, but sometimes you think it's better off dead than to go through the experience.
Pain is something we detest but an absence of it makes you want it.
Pain is something real, to bring us back from our dreams.
And right now, there's no more pain for me.
Just rest and recover. Wish me a fast recovery :D
Same thing that happened to me this year Jan 1.
See doctor.
Take X-Ray.
Put into cast.
Wait to see another doctor.
The irony almost killed me. Same thing again.
While waiting, I realised that pain is a very... interesting emotion. There's so much conflict in it.
Pain can be quiet or loud.
Loud when you experience it, quiet when you're bearing it.
Pain is not something you wish to share with others, but sharing it lessens the feeling considerably.
Pain tells you your alive, but sometimes you think it's better off dead than to go through the experience.
Pain is something we detest but an absence of it makes you want it.
Pain is something real, to bring us back from our dreams.
And right now, there's no more pain for me.
Just rest and recover. Wish me a fast recovery :D
World of Pain
Pain.
The only word in my mind.
The only feeling I'm experiencing right now.
I wish it will go away.
I do not wish to feel such pain again.
I guess it means I'm gonna have to give up some things.
I told myself that when I was 11, now I realise the importance and am thinking about my future.
Pride has blinded me.
I've fallen into its trap. I realised my stupidity now.
Pride comes before a fall. How true.
I'm a stubborn person. So stubborn that I refuse to admit I'm.
Thanks to all of you who cared about me and told me the right thing.
Maybe I'm growing old, thinking about such things. Weighing things and making difficult decisions.
The only word in my mind.
The only feeling I'm experiencing right now.
I wish it will go away.
I do not wish to feel such pain again.
I guess it means I'm gonna have to give up some things.
I told myself that when I was 11, now I realise the importance and am thinking about my future.
Pride has blinded me.
I've fallen into its trap. I realised my stupidity now.
Pride comes before a fall. How true.
I'm a stubborn person. So stubborn that I refuse to admit I'm.
Thanks to all of you who cared about me and told me the right thing.
Maybe I'm growing old, thinking about such things. Weighing things and making difficult decisions.
Something To Remind Myself
This is something that I will remember : (Thanks for telling me)
"the biggest problem with you is
you ask too much
your too cynical
sometimes, something don't need to have a reason
You want to know too much
But too much info - too much of anything - is never good
*Some personal info*
Two wrongs don't make a right
You know that better than anyone
I don't fight fire with fire
And no one should too
So what if I don't get the results I want to?
The thing of it is, I don't do this with a motive
Why should I?
*Something personal*
Even if things don't go the way I want to, at least I know I've tried.
"the biggest problem with you is
you ask too much
your too cynical
sometimes, something don't need to have a reason
You want to know too much
But too much info - too much of anything - is never good
*Some personal info*
Two wrongs don't make a right
You know that better than anyone
I don't fight fire with fire
And no one should too
So what if I don't get the results I want to?
The thing of it is, I don't do this with a motive
Why should I?
*Something personal*
Even if things don't go the way I want to, at least I know I've tried.
My worse pains are those i cannot say
I snapped back from my day dream because she said my name again but this time with more force than the first time.
"Baby, listen to me." She says.
I don't know what to do so I just listen. She told me she blames me for what happened.
"God is punishing us. We have committed the biggest sins we could."
You see, she was a religious girl before I met her..
But she continued to break my heart and tell me it will be a while before she sees me again..
And then, it was goodbye.
Don't wallk away and pretend; pretend that I'm easy to get over with.
"Baby, listen to me." She says.
I don't know what to do so I just listen. She told me she blames me for what happened.
"God is punishing us. We have committed the biggest sins we could."
You see, she was a religious girl before I met her..
But she continued to break my heart and tell me it will be a while before she sees me again..
And then, it was goodbye.
Don't wallk away and pretend; pretend that I'm easy to get over with.
The End And The Beginning
Afraid to walk forward because I didn't want to leave footprints that I wish I didn't.
Now I know it's stupid, because I was never standing still.
Now i step forth, one step. A small but an important one. Thanks to you.
And thanks to you too, whom have compelled me forward in the darkest hour. A candle in the dark, you've guided me towards the door.
Now I walk this path that I choose. May all my friends walk with me.
I will walk forth and leave a path I will be proud of. Or not. But I choose to move in my direction, albeit a small change in direction, but one day I will reach my goal.
May I never waver and find what I seek.
Now I know it's stupid, because I was never standing still.
Now i step forth, one step. A small but an important one. Thanks to you.
And thanks to you too, whom have compelled me forward in the darkest hour. A candle in the dark, you've guided me towards the door.
Now I walk this path that I choose. May all my friends walk with me.
I will walk forth and leave a path I will be proud of. Or not. But I choose to move in my direction, albeit a small change in direction, but one day I will reach my goal.
May I never waver and find what I seek.
First Day At Work
It was, well, work. I went in there and was half half not sure not sure and end of day.. Well, still half half not sure not sure.
It could be worse.
Well, this job of mine. I think it's rather okay. As in, I'm actucally providing service to people who care and have problems in their education. I'm not selling things, or trying to con people to buy things from me, nor placate people who have made a bad purchase. I think it's actucally quite meaniful.
I'm rather upset at myself, for being affected for some time by a guy. He was upset and angry that it's a shitty job and other people got paid better but hey, this is life. You win some, you lose some. When I get to University, I'm gonna win it all big time.
Oh yeah, shitty weather. But made me realise that there's shelter from the MRT station to the workplace. Amazing.
I can't wait to hear some of the crap people will say.
It could be worse.
Well, this job of mine. I think it's rather okay. As in, I'm actucally providing service to people who care and have problems in their education. I'm not selling things, or trying to con people to buy things from me, nor placate people who have made a bad purchase. I think it's actucally quite meaniful.
I'm rather upset at myself, for being affected for some time by a guy. He was upset and angry that it's a shitty job and other people got paid better but hey, this is life. You win some, you lose some. When I get to University, I'm gonna win it all big time.
Oh yeah, shitty weather. But made me realise that there's shelter from the MRT station to the workplace. Amazing.
I can't wait to hear some of the crap people will say.
Interviews
As of today, I went for like.. * numbers of interview where * = number which I forgot/lost count.
The one that I went today, I think it went rather well. It was at MOE (Ministry Of Education), and it was a call centre job. I didn't go with a positive attitude. Positive = I want the job. I just wanted to experience more interviews and make myself comfortable and hopefully get the job I want. But the working hours and the pay is quite attractive, so.. Let's see how it goes.
Anyway, from what I've experienced, interviews are like so different in different environments. I went for 1 at a retail shop, 1 at government organisation, 1 at private sector and some which I think weren't really interviews. I guess different places has different work enthics and different work requirements.
1 thing is common though.. Or rather, an interview is a place where you sell yourself. I gotta admit I should have known beforehand. And reading "blink" really makes me wonder. The first impression thing is really important I guess. And if you sell yourself well in the interview, you get the job. Doesn't matter if you're really not capable. (They may regret and kick you out but at least you succeeded in getting there first.)
So.. I guess it's something I gotta learn to do. And I think it's just something that I don't really do well. I really can't be bothered with other people, in the area of impressing them. Why should I? I just wanna be myself and not fake who I'm. But I think who I'm should suit the job and the environment. But it's how I sell who I'm. Grrr.. Getting a bit confused and irritated.
Wish me luck.
The one that I went today, I think it went rather well. It was at MOE (Ministry Of Education), and it was a call centre job. I didn't go with a positive attitude. Positive = I want the job. I just wanted to experience more interviews and make myself comfortable and hopefully get the job I want. But the working hours and the pay is quite attractive, so.. Let's see how it goes.
Anyway, from what I've experienced, interviews are like so different in different environments. I went for 1 at a retail shop, 1 at government organisation, 1 at private sector and some which I think weren't really interviews. I guess different places has different work enthics and different work requirements.
1 thing is common though.. Or rather, an interview is a place where you sell yourself. I gotta admit I should have known beforehand. And reading "blink" really makes me wonder. The first impression thing is really important I guess. And if you sell yourself well in the interview, you get the job. Doesn't matter if you're really not capable. (They may regret and kick you out but at least you succeeded in getting there first.)
So.. I guess it's something I gotta learn to do. And I think it's just something that I don't really do well. I really can't be bothered with other people, in the area of impressing them. Why should I? I just wanna be myself and not fake who I'm. But I think who I'm should suit the job and the environment. But it's how I sell who I'm. Grrr.. Getting a bit confused and irritated.
Wish me luck.
So Much For Commitment!
I guess I was pretty discouraged. To continue writing and posting on this blog. It's like talking to a wall. And yet sometimes in your life, you just need to do that.
For the benefit of the invisible stalker who reads my blog, these are the recent events of my life.(In chronological order)
I ORD yesterday. I got my IC. Contrary to common belief, ORD isn't that "shiok" of a feeling. In fact, I was pretty worried for 1 week prior to yesterday about not finding a job. Make that from last week till now and until I get one.
Okay, so I worry. What have I done? Sent many many resumes/cover letters. I went for interviews. I dressed up and even got a tie. I did what I could, or so I hope.
Other things that happened? I started watching Bleach again.. Ran out of animes to watch after finishing Law Of Ueki..
Oh, and I guess I was most proud of my job hunting. I did quite a bit of stuff that brought me out of my comfort zone. Feel like a grown-up already. Anyways, kinda tired.. End here.
I will post more when I think it's worth it..
For the benefit of the invisible stalker who reads my blog, these are the recent events of my life.(In chronological order)
I ORD yesterday. I got my IC. Contrary to common belief, ORD isn't that "shiok" of a feeling. In fact, I was pretty worried for 1 week prior to yesterday about not finding a job. Make that from last week till now and until I get one.
Okay, so I worry. What have I done? Sent many many resumes/cover letters. I went for interviews. I dressed up and even got a tie. I did what I could, or so I hope.
Other things that happened? I started watching Bleach again.. Ran out of animes to watch after finishing Law Of Ueki..
Oh, and I guess I was most proud of my job hunting. I did quite a bit of stuff that brought me out of my comfort zone. Feel like a grown-up already. Anyways, kinda tired.. End here.
I will post more when I think it's worth it..
Pay day!
Today I got my allowance from NS.
I dunnoe if it's true for others, but receiving pay makes me feel like spending it. :D
There's a power felt when you have money.
So I spent.. Went out to have lunch with my friends but ended up buying a book titled "Blink". I kept hearing about it, so I just bought it so to encourage myself to read it.
Anyway my body is aching from playing badminton yesterday.. Need rest, or need more excerise?
Both.
Gotta go catch some winks. Ciao
I dunnoe if it's true for others, but receiving pay makes me feel like spending it. :D
There's a power felt when you have money.
So I spent.. Went out to have lunch with my friends but ended up buying a book titled "Blink". I kept hearing about it, so I just bought it so to encourage myself to read it.
Anyway my body is aching from playing badminton yesterday.. Need rest, or need more excerise?
Both.
Gotta go catch some winks. Ciao
IQ vs EQ
Feeling pretty pissed. Please do not press Ctrl and W, it closes your internet explorer tab. I was half way through this post when I pressed that by accident. Here I'm doing it again.
Okay, topic : IQ vs EQ
Let's start with definitions. Both of them are taken from Wikipedia.
IQ : An intelligence quotient or IQ is a score derived from one of several different standardized tests attempting to measure intelligence. IQ tests are used as predictors of educational achievement. People with low IQ scores are sometimes placed in special-needs education.
In my interpretation, it means your ability to accept, apply, interpret accurately concepts especially those of Mathematics, Physics, Biology, Chemistry and whatever your education system teaches.
EQ : Emotional Intelligence (EI), often measured as an Emotional Intelligence Quotient (EQ), describes an ability, capacity, or skill to perceive, assess, and manage the emotions of one's self, of others, and of groups. As a relatively new area of psychological research, the definition of EI is constantly changing.
In my interpretation, it's about how humans behave towards other humans, in different situations. It's really something complex to measure, especially since different places in the world have different cultures and traditions, resulting in different actions having different meanings. Hence, actions would be only a bad measurement. (I believe it is rude to make noises when eating in some countries but I believe it is okay to do so in some countries to express that it is delicious) Hence, intention of your actions is a better measurement.
There's a thousand and one issue to be discussed here. I want to focus only on ONE.
"Is IQ more important than EQ in today's society?"
My stand : No. EQ is more important than IQ. This may sound like a typical answer but let me do justice to my words.
Regarding the question, you may ask : Why not, "is High IQ more important than high EQ"? Because I believe people with high IQ are born with it. There's really no argument since you cannot change your IQ. And the answer doesn't mean anything to the rest of us who has average IQ.
Firstly, everybody knows that IQ is important, in the past and today. Children with high IQ are considered child prodigies. They are separated from the main stream education and enter special schools to help them develop their mind. They will most likely get the chance to finish education early and/or obtain scholarships in prestige schools. Their life is pretty much secured, with many employers on the lookout for them.
So, does all this make IQ important, especially high IQ? (Note : I'm not saying that people with high IQ has low EQ, they can have both)
How about people with low IQ? What prompt us, as humans to give them chances? It's compassion, love, sympathy and more.
Why bother to build schools and facilities for them and the disabled? Because we believe in the value of life. And I think this is part of EQ, not IQ.
I believe IQ is associated with knowledge. And in today's world, with all the mass media and World Wide Web, information is easily and freeily transmitted. A fine example would be you, reading this post that I wrote at home, and me taking information right off the net (Wikipedia).
Anybody can type in the search bar for whatever relevant information that they need and more often than not, they will get a reliable source of information which they can also cross reference with books and experts if necessary.
My point?
Information is readily available in this world. There's really no actucal need to excel in education anymore. You cannot beat the computer in memorizing facts. That itself is a fact. However, I'm not saying that humans are useless. On the contrary, humans are more important than ever to use all this information to live a better life and a higher standard of living. Health care is a very good example.
Today, we all live a rather comfortable life. We do not need IQ to excel and live a complete life with family, friends and things that truly matter in life. In fact, we find friends and family more important than material needs.
Today, seldom do we grow our own food. We prosper through trade and excellent services. EQ is part of our everyday life. Everything you do requires EQ, buying food, travelling on the public transport or even gamers, whom are bounded by certain codes even in the virtual world.
EQ can get you far, with the right contacts. There are so many skilled workers out there that unless you are exceptional and highly recognised, you are just a number to employers. A person who dresses presentable in job interviews is practising good EQ by making people have good impressions of him. A person who has friends in the job (especially in big companies) that they are looking for has a good headstart. You may be talented but without any opportunity you probably may not be able to showcase your talent.
My belief is that if it takes time to just train someone to be good in his job, then anyone capable enough will do. However, it is usually the contacts the person has which makes him so valuable as a person. And a person with good EQ has many good contacts.(Generally)
So much said. So what I'm saying is that EQ is important in everyday life. It is so much more important than IQ and it definitely determines where you end up in life.
Please give your comments. I believe this topic has too much to be discussed, may start something else.
P.S : Forgive me if you think the thoughts don't really answer the question. Your help and opinions are really appreciated.
Okay, topic : IQ vs EQ
Let's start with definitions. Both of them are taken from Wikipedia.
IQ : An intelligence quotient or IQ is a score derived from one of several different standardized tests attempting to measure intelligence. IQ tests are used as predictors of educational achievement. People with low IQ scores are sometimes placed in special-needs education.
In my interpretation, it means your ability to accept, apply, interpret accurately concepts especially those of Mathematics, Physics, Biology, Chemistry and whatever your education system teaches.
EQ : Emotional Intelligence (EI), often measured as an Emotional Intelligence Quotient (EQ), describes an ability, capacity, or skill to perceive, assess, and manage the emotions of one's self, of others, and of groups. As a relatively new area of psychological research, the definition of EI is constantly changing.
In my interpretation, it's about how humans behave towards other humans, in different situations. It's really something complex to measure, especially since different places in the world have different cultures and traditions, resulting in different actions having different meanings. Hence, actions would be only a bad measurement. (I believe it is rude to make noises when eating in some countries but I believe it is okay to do so in some countries to express that it is delicious) Hence, intention of your actions is a better measurement.
There's a thousand and one issue to be discussed here. I want to focus only on ONE.
"Is IQ more important than EQ in today's society?"
My stand : No. EQ is more important than IQ. This may sound like a typical answer but let me do justice to my words.
Regarding the question, you may ask : Why not, "is High IQ more important than high EQ"? Because I believe people with high IQ are born with it. There's really no argument since you cannot change your IQ. And the answer doesn't mean anything to the rest of us who has average IQ.
Firstly, everybody knows that IQ is important, in the past and today. Children with high IQ are considered child prodigies. They are separated from the main stream education and enter special schools to help them develop their mind. They will most likely get the chance to finish education early and/or obtain scholarships in prestige schools. Their life is pretty much secured, with many employers on the lookout for them.
So, does all this make IQ important, especially high IQ? (Note : I'm not saying that people with high IQ has low EQ, they can have both)
How about people with low IQ? What prompt us, as humans to give them chances? It's compassion, love, sympathy and more.
Why bother to build schools and facilities for them and the disabled? Because we believe in the value of life. And I think this is part of EQ, not IQ.
I believe IQ is associated with knowledge. And in today's world, with all the mass media and World Wide Web, information is easily and freeily transmitted. A fine example would be you, reading this post that I wrote at home, and me taking information right off the net (Wikipedia).
Anybody can type in the search bar for whatever relevant information that they need and more often than not, they will get a reliable source of information which they can also cross reference with books and experts if necessary.
My point?
Information is readily available in this world. There's really no actucal need to excel in education anymore. You cannot beat the computer in memorizing facts. That itself is a fact. However, I'm not saying that humans are useless. On the contrary, humans are more important than ever to use all this information to live a better life and a higher standard of living. Health care is a very good example.
Today, we all live a rather comfortable life. We do not need IQ to excel and live a complete life with family, friends and things that truly matter in life. In fact, we find friends and family more important than material needs.
Today, seldom do we grow our own food. We prosper through trade and excellent services. EQ is part of our everyday life. Everything you do requires EQ, buying food, travelling on the public transport or even gamers, whom are bounded by certain codes even in the virtual world.
EQ can get you far, with the right contacts. There are so many skilled workers out there that unless you are exceptional and highly recognised, you are just a number to employers. A person who dresses presentable in job interviews is practising good EQ by making people have good impressions of him. A person who has friends in the job (especially in big companies) that they are looking for has a good headstart. You may be talented but without any opportunity you probably may not be able to showcase your talent.
My belief is that if it takes time to just train someone to be good in his job, then anyone capable enough will do. However, it is usually the contacts the person has which makes him so valuable as a person. And a person with good EQ has many good contacts.(Generally)
So much said. So what I'm saying is that EQ is important in everyday life. It is so much more important than IQ and it definitely determines where you end up in life.
Please give your comments. I believe this topic has too much to be discussed, may start something else.
P.S : Forgive me if you think the thoughts don't really answer the question. Your help and opinions are really appreciated.
Matter Of Choice
One of the main reasons I wanted a blog was to dicuss certain ideas that I have. And the reason I didn't really start anything serious right away was because I wanted to test how active or rather how much of a possibility that people will read my blog.
Well, so far I've received no comments.
Heck, but I'll post what I want anyway. (It's my blog!)
And I realised that discussions are also done in FORUMS.(And perhas the main reason for them to exist.)
Therefore, ladies and gentlemen, I will join some forums to do discussions and maybe by some stroke of luck that you actucally do read my blog which probably by this point of time in this post you're wondering WTF I'm trying to say, I'm gonna post my discussions here as well.
So, feel free to comment and put 20 pages worth of wonderful ideas and heated arguments into my topics.
BUT, please, none of the advertsiment nonsense or promotion I offen see when people get the chance to put comments on videos and such. ETC. (Come to this website : XXX.com for "Blah Blah")
Thanks.
Here's the first topic :
Matter of choice, do we have it?
First up, in the 7 Habits of Highly Effective Teens by Sean Covey(which is similiar to 7 Habits of Highly Effective People by Stephen R. Covey, his dad) the book basically starts with (and that makes it sort of centers around) the fact that we make our own choices in life.
This choice gives us power. Will power and the ability to overcome our natural instincts. Meaning to say, we can overcome difficulties(Will Power) and looking for a toilet instead of answering nature's call in public.(Ability to overcome our natural instinct to "let it go")
My main question is this: Does this choice include those of that in life-threatening situations? Or rather, what situations are there which you will say "I have no choice?"
Let me give my opinion. I for one, think we always have a choice. Especially when it comes to our life. It is our own. No one can choose for you. Even if it means to give it up.
To illustrate, let me put it this way. When someone holds a knife to my neck and ask me to do something. I have a choice. To obey or disobey. Some people will say "I have no choice." I disagree. You may have 1001 reasons to say I'm wrong, stupid, impractical.
However, I feel that if you give in, you lose. Lose in the sense of a battle within yourself. If you give in once; when faced with the same situation again, you will give in. And if harms comes to others because of you (whether you intended it or not) I'm sure you'll feel guilty. I rather die than experience such feelings.
More importantly, I think pride and my personal beliefs and experience has made me feel this way. I will not live my life based on others and definitely not some guy who threatens my life.
Please comment and let me know!
Well, so far I've received no comments.
Heck, but I'll post what I want anyway. (It's my blog!)
And I realised that discussions are also done in FORUMS.(And perhas the main reason for them to exist.)
Therefore, ladies and gentlemen, I will join some forums to do discussions and maybe by some stroke of luck that you actucally do read my blog which probably by this point of time in this post you're wondering WTF I'm trying to say, I'm gonna post my discussions here as well.
So, feel free to comment and put 20 pages worth of wonderful ideas and heated arguments into my topics.
BUT, please, none of the advertsiment nonsense or promotion I offen see when people get the chance to put comments on videos and such. ETC. (Come to this website : XXX.com for "Blah Blah")
Thanks.
Here's the first topic :
Matter of choice, do we have it?
First up, in the 7 Habits of Highly Effective Teens by Sean Covey(which is similiar to 7 Habits of Highly Effective People by Stephen R. Covey, his dad) the book basically starts with (and that makes it sort of centers around) the fact that we make our own choices in life.
This choice gives us power. Will power and the ability to overcome our natural instincts. Meaning to say, we can overcome difficulties(Will Power) and looking for a toilet instead of answering nature's call in public.(Ability to overcome our natural instinct to "let it go")
My main question is this: Does this choice include those of that in life-threatening situations? Or rather, what situations are there which you will say "I have no choice?"
Let me give my opinion. I for one, think we always have a choice. Especially when it comes to our life. It is our own. No one can choose for you. Even if it means to give it up.
To illustrate, let me put it this way. When someone holds a knife to my neck and ask me to do something. I have a choice. To obey or disobey. Some people will say "I have no choice." I disagree. You may have 1001 reasons to say I'm wrong, stupid, impractical.
However, I feel that if you give in, you lose. Lose in the sense of a battle within yourself. If you give in once; when faced with the same situation again, you will give in. And if harms comes to others because of you (whether you intended it or not) I'm sure you'll feel guilty. I rather die than experience such feelings.
More importantly, I think pride and my personal beliefs and experience has made me feel this way. I will not live my life based on others and definitely not some guy who threatens my life.
Please comment and let me know!
Another Week
Yet another week has gone by.
It's Sunday night.
I think back about what I've done for the week. It was pretty hectic. Went out on Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday. Just chill at home today. Was rather unwell from Friday though. Bleah.
Well, I guess I'm pretty satisified with what I've accomplished. Managed to learn something which I will not post. :D Tomorrow is the start of fitness regiment, gotta strengthen my leg! Climb stairs and basic stretches for my ankle.
Oh yeah, hope there's still pay coming in this month. After that must save up and look for work. Currently hoping that my plans will work out. Gotta earn some money and upgrade my computer and stuff. :D
At episode 75 of Eye Shield 21. Think it's been 14 days since I started from episode 1. Can't imagine how far I would have gone if I haven't had to go out on this week. LOL
Gotta go catch some winks, or maybe watch just one more episode.. Hmmm..
It's Sunday night.
I think back about what I've done for the week. It was pretty hectic. Went out on Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday. Just chill at home today. Was rather unwell from Friday though. Bleah.
Well, I guess I'm pretty satisified with what I've accomplished. Managed to learn something which I will not post. :D Tomorrow is the start of fitness regiment, gotta strengthen my leg! Climb stairs and basic stretches for my ankle.
Oh yeah, hope there's still pay coming in this month. After that must save up and look for work. Currently hoping that my plans will work out. Gotta earn some money and upgrade my computer and stuff. :D
At episode 75 of Eye Shield 21. Think it's been 14 days since I started from episode 1. Can't imagine how far I would have gone if I haven't had to go out on this week. LOL
Gotta go catch some winks, or maybe watch just one more episode.. Hmmm..
BBQ
Had a BBQ today.. Was for my RQ's farewell.. The food was.. BBQ style.. Haha, it was pretty good la..
Well, I went back to help out too. I guess that's the last time. A guy's gotta have some time for himself too you know? But it was rather fun to work again, but it seems like people are taking me a fool.. So I guess I better not be one..
:)
Well, I went back to help out too. I guess that's the last time. A guy's gotta have some time for himself too you know? But it was rather fun to work again, but it seems like people are taking me a fool.. So I guess I better not be one..
:)
To: 1WO Anpa
I went to an event in my camp today. It was a routine celebration of both the Hari Raya and Deepavli. However, it was special this year because it was a combined celebration plus a farewell party for 1WO Anpa, who is leaving for his new appointment as RQ in Sai Yok, Cresendo.
Well, I actucally wrote a speech for this event.
Guess what? THEY thought it was insufficent and they re-wrote most of it.
Talk about BAD Engilsh. (Pun intended)
Anyways, I still read it out.(After much frustration in altering it) And thanks to the ever lousy PA system, most of the speech was lost in the bickering, chit-chatting and munching of the people at the event place.
I felt good.
Brave in fact.
I'll never ever do such a embrassing thing again. Swear.
Anyways, I want to wish 1WO Anpa the best in his future endeavors. I want to thank him for putting trust in me to do my job, and him for showing me that experience really helps in doing lots of stuff. Thanks him for teaching and forgiving my mistakes and just being my RQ. I would have had a bad time under someone incompetent. He was GREAT.
All the best Sir. I doubt you'll get to read this, but if you do. Know that I meant this with all of my heart.
Thanks and Best Regards,
Chin Poh
Well, I actucally wrote a speech for this event.
Guess what? THEY thought it was insufficent and they re-wrote most of it.
Talk about BAD Engilsh. (Pun intended)
Anyways, I still read it out.(After much frustration in altering it) And thanks to the ever lousy PA system, most of the speech was lost in the bickering, chit-chatting and munching of the people at the event place.
I felt good.
Brave in fact.
I'll never ever do such a embrassing thing again. Swear.
Anyways, I want to wish 1WO Anpa the best in his future endeavors. I want to thank him for putting trust in me to do my job, and him for showing me that experience really helps in doing lots of stuff. Thanks him for teaching and forgiving my mistakes and just being my RQ. I would have had a bad time under someone incompetent. He was GREAT.
All the best Sir. I doubt you'll get to read this, but if you do. Know that I meant this with all of my heart.
Thanks and Best Regards,
Chin Poh
PoP!
Went to my friend's Passing Out Parade(PoP) yesterday.
Reminded me of happy and sad things.
I clearly remember it was really great to leave behind the tekong island, where you're the lowest life form.
Sad because training days were the easiest, time flew by really fast.
Anyway, congrats to Azad on his PoP, and dude, make your NS worth it. I know you will. :)
Reminded me of happy and sad things.
I clearly remember it was really great to leave behind the tekong island, where you're the lowest life form.
Sad because training days were the easiest, time flew by really fast.
Anyway, congrats to Azad on his PoP, and dude, make your NS worth it. I know you will. :)
Request!
There was a point in time where I decided that I would stop staring at the books in the library and will them to talk to me.
Serious.
How often have you entered the library(forgive me if you don't) and just stare at the rows of books on the shelves?
How often have you seen other people doing the above?
That's why I was thinking about this method. Why not just go into the library, walk up to someone and ask the person,"Hey, why don't we put ourselves into a win-win situation? You recommend me one book, tell me what's so good about it, and I'll return you the favor. Instead of trying to blindly pick and hope you'll find a good book."
And then there was light.(Joking) So why not extend the network? I want to ask all for you reading my blog to just recommend me one book. ONE. And just tell me what's good about it. Just ONE book and ONE good point.
Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee.
(So much said for one request. -_-") Sorry.
Serious.
How often have you entered the library(forgive me if you don't) and just stare at the rows of books on the shelves?
How often have you seen other people doing the above?
That's why I was thinking about this method. Why not just go into the library, walk up to someone and ask the person,"Hey, why don't we put ourselves into a win-win situation? You recommend me one book, tell me what's so good about it, and I'll return you the favor. Instead of trying to blindly pick and hope you'll find a good book."
And then there was light.(Joking) So why not extend the network? I want to ask all for you reading my blog to just recommend me one book. ONE. And just tell me what's good about it. Just ONE book and ONE good point.
Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee.
(So much said for one request. -_-") Sorry.
Quote
Just a quote I got today from watching Eye Shield 21.
"A man who walks 100 miles carries the first 99 with him."
It's true isn't it?
The end is the toughest.
It's when you start thinking, "I've done 99, I can live without that 1." It's when you're most mentally and physically drained.
Gotta finish what I start,damn it. Let's get rid of those thoughts.
Ya-ha!
"A man who walks 100 miles carries the first 99 with him."
It's true isn't it?
The end is the toughest.
It's when you start thinking, "I've done 99, I can live without that 1." It's when you're most mentally and physically drained.
Gotta finish what I start,damn it. Let's get rid of those thoughts.
Ya-ha!
Relevation
I was watching anime yesterday (I'm kinda a anime junkie now, sorry) and I had sorta relevation. I realised that anime = TV programmes.
What do I mean?
TV programmes wants you. The producers want you to keep at it. Drama, soap opera, other useless shows imbued with COMMERICALS. They eat up your time. Munch Munch. Before you know it. Poof, 2 hours gone.. Oh man..
Anime, however, they sorta have a meaning. (Yeah, Naruto's kinda long, but there's meaning behind it.) I was watching Eye Shield 21 when I realised that I want to be like the characters. Have a goal, but not be so obessed with it. Change with the situation, YOU have a talent, so go and use it! For others or yourself, it's all up to you.
I realised the anime producers they want you to learn something. Brainless anime aren't popular. They make you want to do something. So stop watching and get your ass off that chair and do your stuff!
That's when i went out to excerise and stop being a junkie. (LOL)
What do I mean?
TV programmes wants you. The producers want you to keep at it. Drama, soap opera, other useless shows imbued with COMMERICALS. They eat up your time. Munch Munch. Before you know it. Poof, 2 hours gone.. Oh man..
Anime, however, they sorta have a meaning. (Yeah, Naruto's kinda long, but there's meaning behind it.) I was watching Eye Shield 21 when I realised that I want to be like the characters. Have a goal, but not be so obessed with it. Change with the situation, YOU have a talent, so go and use it! For others or yourself, it's all up to you.
I realised the anime producers they want you to learn something. Brainless anime aren't popular. They make you want to do something. So stop watching and get your ass off that chair and do your stuff!
That's when i went out to excerise and stop being a junkie. (LOL)
The Beginning
Why?
That must the first question in your mind.
Why create a blog? Why reveal your thoughts to everyone?
Because we live on Earth, and no man is an island.
Why now, then? You ask?
Why? Because I'm free lah.. What else.
Anyways, thanks for taking the time and effort to read what I'm going to post or actucally, you've already read part of it already. :)
This is a new beginning. The beginning of the end which I'm leaving behind with no regrets and a new beginning to my life.
What am I refering to? The end of my National Service, and the beginning of my life as an adult.
Thanks to NS(National Service) I've been through a lot. I've seen a lot and learnt a lot. I took my appointment as a challenge and I'm glad to say I did well and I'm happy with my results! :) Went through loads of crap too, and that should prepare me for anything. Well, I've seen so much bull that for a moment I believe cows could fly, and I've seen crap that can really walk sideways. (Joking)
Anyways, some people complain, whine, curse about NS, during NS(me included). I've decided that I'll move on. It's over. Bye bye. See you no more. Why bother talking about something you didn't enjoy? Something you wished it was over the moment you were in it? Didn't you wish it was over? Now it is. Move on, get a life. Stop complaining about how bad it was. There's so many things to be done. 2 years. Give it. You can't take it back. So.. Let's GO!
That must the first question in your mind.
Why create a blog? Why reveal your thoughts to everyone?
Because we live on Earth, and no man is an island.
Why now, then? You ask?
Why? Because I'm free lah.. What else.
Anyways, thanks for taking the time and effort to read what I'm going to post or actucally, you've already read part of it already. :)
This is a new beginning. The beginning of the end which I'm leaving behind with no regrets and a new beginning to my life.
What am I refering to? The end of my National Service, and the beginning of my life as an adult.
Thanks to NS(National Service) I've been through a lot. I've seen a lot and learnt a lot. I took my appointment as a challenge and I'm glad to say I did well and I'm happy with my results! :) Went through loads of crap too, and that should prepare me for anything. Well, I've seen so much bull that for a moment I believe cows could fly, and I've seen crap that can really walk sideways. (Joking)
Anyways, some people complain, whine, curse about NS, during NS(me included). I've decided that I'll move on. It's over. Bye bye. See you no more. Why bother talking about something you didn't enjoy? Something you wished it was over the moment you were in it? Didn't you wish it was over? Now it is. Move on, get a life. Stop complaining about how bad it was. There's so many things to be done. 2 years. Give it. You can't take it back. So.. Let's GO!
First Post.
Well, this blog was created because my other one can only display 10. I have like 30.. So need somewhere which can deposit my stuff :P
Enjoy my emotions, thoughts, crap and whatsnot.
By the way, I'm gonna be in My'sia from 05/03/08 to 08/03/08. Don't miss me
Enjoy my emotions, thoughts, crap and whatsnot.
By the way, I'm gonna be in My'sia from 05/03/08 to 08/03/08. Don't miss me
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